It is 7 am and I am standing in the software aisle at Best Buy contemplating how to break it to my manager that I am, in fact, unfit to work this morning.
I have slept seven hours in the past three days. My last attempt was a nap between 5:30 and 6:30 this morning. [...]
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beat and evil
I sometimes feel like I’m fooling everybody.
I don’t feel well. I’m feeling really lost, actually. I know, I know — anyone who reads this is thinking, “You’re always writing about how lost you feel. Every twenty-something is lost.” This time it’s a lost-feeling that actually interferes with my everyday life. (i.e. insomnia and constant irritability and crying spells). I don’t [...]
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“You don’t look pretty when you cry.”
I’ve heard this said in high-pitched voices by mothers consoling their crying daughters in women’s restrooms. In a last-ditch effort to halt the uncontrollable sobbing, a mother will undermine something that essentially differentiates us as women: the will and desire to outwardly express emotion. It’s as if her [...]
Don’t it feel like tonight might never be again?
…I had been feeling, lately, that I had been in this funk of sorts. I get depressed, is all — we all do. Do you notice that it feels so damn good, sometimes, to just sit in it? To just feel whatever it is you’re meant to feel, and go from there? For me, this [...]
I guess I’ll know/when I get there…
I want to go home.
I know this because I’ve gotten restless. I know this because in the middle of Target I started crying, reading Father’s Day cards. I know this because I feel like every melancholy song I hear is somehow my life’s soundtrack for that precise moment.
I get like this sometimes, after I haven’t [...]